another year has gone by. can't say that any of my 2007 resolutions has been achieved. so, here's another attempt at some of them...
1) to be top financial consultant (translation - sell insurance, funds, will writing, tax planning etc etc. i'll be so good, i might not wanna sell even if you wanna buy!!! KAKAKAKAAKAA)
2) to get 4 paid photo jobs
3) to bE_goTTen (not gonna explain,... but no procreation involved)
4) ski trip! (woohooooooooo....)
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
lighten up
a good friend said "wah... looks like your site is getting a little bit sensitive nowadays..." !!! so, to lighten things up,
a gathering!!! yay!! at may li's... saturday...29th december 07... 20:00 till late... for pictionary and abit of catching up. bring some snack/ drinks which would not involve washing up as there is no maid at the moment! babies are welcome... but they bring their own drinks!
1) terence - vodka
2) may li & poh chin - cups
3) poh chin - fruitcake
4)
a gathering!!! yay!! at may li's... saturday...29th december 07... 20:00 till late... for pictionary and abit of catching up. bring some snack/ drinks which would not involve washing up as there is no maid at the moment! babies are welcome... but they bring their own drinks!
1) terence - vodka
2) may li & poh chin - cups
3) poh chin - fruitcake
4)
Friday, December 14, 2007
sometimes it's just better to let it burn...
girls have a tendency to hold on... to the littlest grain of hope... to the smallest possibility. the "maybe... just maybe"s ... but i think it's true that when one door closes. another opens. the thing with most girls is that two doors can't really be open at the same time (most of the times anyway). and it is so super easy to give an illussion of that grain of hope. so gullible. sigh.
so sometimes, it's just better to let it burn...
so sometimes, it's just better to let it burn...
2 sides of a coin
2 sides to a story, 2 ways of seeing the same thing... recently had first hand experience of the latter. it's funny? how the same person can say very different things about the same thing... depending on the person's mood or what kind of mood the person think you are in or whether or not the person needs you...etc (maybe there are some other factors that has yet to come to mind)
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
why?
i had a very interesting conversation with a friend yesterday. she was saying that she heard me talking to other ppl about the conditions in this country.
how power is being abuse for the benefit of the elite few. how the ppl are deliberately turned against one another, made to hate one another, DISTRACTED! so that the elite few can continue milking the country of her resources. how we do not question what is done. how some issues are made to be "sensitive", so that we are careful not to question.
she said "you should be careful". look at the recent protests. they don't get what they want! why say something and get yourself into trouble?
all said in good faith. she is right. i should be careful. but i do not believe it doesn't make a difference.
need to be careful because the current ruling powers are very insecure. therefore any form of threat would be weed out. no such thing as hearing things out because the threat might grow.
but it does make a difference. sometimes, all we need to do is to monitor. sometimes, all we need to do is to question. i think the thing that is sorely lacking at this moment is education. we are not educated in the existing system. most of us may not know about the voting system. where do the ppl we elect go? what can they do? what are they suppose to do?? who is above them? how did those ppl get there?
to control the system, one must know the system.
what else do we need? we need an alternative. stronger independent parties. to replace the current jokers in the so-call opposition party. i had always wondered... is the opposition party real? or are they illusions created by the ruling powers. to give the ppl fake feeling of having balance of powers?
it's funny how we have changed. when we band together, united to fight another power. how we succeeded. how the small inequilibrium in rights and powers have been immaterial initially. how that has grown (who says power does not corrupt). how that inequilibrium has now caused discontentment. what is going to happen next?
i have no idea. but i have noticed one thing. those who can, are migrating. those who are here, are thankfully slowly begining to care. especially those who are married and have given birth. because now, their child would be affected. i have noticed that my friends who have children are the ones more passionate about this cause.
so what can be done? first, understand the situation. all the countries in the world are like women in a pageant. there are numerous titles to be won. there is a definite timeline... say one year for each woman to prepare herself for the pageant. our country is this beautiful chicky with 36-34-36 vital stats, great natural resources. brains being the ruling power, we are therefore lacking. what does she do? does she practise her catwalk? get the facials? manicures and pedicures? perfect her talent routine? does she utilise all the publicity for a good charitable cause? NO!!! she does not! she sleeps around with anybody who can pay. short term goals. earn as much as possible now! go out on dates and eat all the good food. that's what is happening.
a beautiful place where everybody can prosper and have good long term benefits. but due to mismanagement, she is dying... organs want to be donated!!!
what next? let's help her heal. by learning how she works. by monitoring. by questioning. it works. try it. to understand it at a smaller scale. attend a company AGM. start questioning. don't take stupid answers sitting down. insist on a good answer. when the directors know the owners are not dumb, they will sit up. and buck up.
how power is being abuse for the benefit of the elite few. how the ppl are deliberately turned against one another, made to hate one another, DISTRACTED! so that the elite few can continue milking the country of her resources. how we do not question what is done. how some issues are made to be "sensitive", so that we are careful not to question.
she said "you should be careful". look at the recent protests. they don't get what they want! why say something and get yourself into trouble?
all said in good faith. she is right. i should be careful. but i do not believe it doesn't make a difference.
need to be careful because the current ruling powers are very insecure. therefore any form of threat would be weed out. no such thing as hearing things out because the threat might grow.
but it does make a difference. sometimes, all we need to do is to monitor. sometimes, all we need to do is to question. i think the thing that is sorely lacking at this moment is education. we are not educated in the existing system. most of us may not know about the voting system. where do the ppl we elect go? what can they do? what are they suppose to do?? who is above them? how did those ppl get there?
to control the system, one must know the system.
what else do we need? we need an alternative. stronger independent parties. to replace the current jokers in the so-call opposition party. i had always wondered... is the opposition party real? or are they illusions created by the ruling powers. to give the ppl fake feeling of having balance of powers?
it's funny how we have changed. when we band together, united to fight another power. how we succeeded. how the small inequilibrium in rights and powers have been immaterial initially. how that has grown (who says power does not corrupt). how that inequilibrium has now caused discontentment. what is going to happen next?
i have no idea. but i have noticed one thing. those who can, are migrating. those who are here, are thankfully slowly begining to care. especially those who are married and have given birth. because now, their child would be affected. i have noticed that my friends who have children are the ones more passionate about this cause.
so what can be done? first, understand the situation. all the countries in the world are like women in a pageant. there are numerous titles to be won. there is a definite timeline... say one year for each woman to prepare herself for the pageant. our country is this beautiful chicky with 36-34-36 vital stats, great natural resources. brains being the ruling power, we are therefore lacking. what does she do? does she practise her catwalk? get the facials? manicures and pedicures? perfect her talent routine? does she utilise all the publicity for a good charitable cause? NO!!! she does not! she sleeps around with anybody who can pay. short term goals. earn as much as possible now! go out on dates and eat all the good food. that's what is happening.
a beautiful place where everybody can prosper and have good long term benefits. but due to mismanagement, she is dying... organs want to be donated!!!
what next? let's help her heal. by learning how she works. by monitoring. by questioning. it works. try it. to understand it at a smaller scale. attend a company AGM. start questioning. don't take stupid answers sitting down. insist on a good answer. when the directors know the owners are not dumb, they will sit up. and buck up.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
photo job!! woohooooooooo!!!
teng kiu terence fu!!!! may and i are now officially photographers!!!! we've got our first paid job. :) did my friend's company annual dinner for free. was fun. was not as easy as we envisioned it to be. it's all hard work. camera was heavy. pressure was there. tiring. but had loads of pretty subjects. i suppose, at the moment, it is the company with the most number of pretty chickies around.... that i have seen ler. hopefully, we'll be getting more jobs!! :)
anybody looking for photographers? :)
anybody looking for photographers? :)
dylan yap has made his grand entrance!!
congratulations to corina and alex!!! their first born, dylan yap came into the world on 3 december 2007.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
gee...
malaysia's prime minister is going to visit kasawri heights in puchong. for some kinda launch. two banners were put up to welcome him. one in bahasa malaysia, one in chinese. yesterday, some ppl from MPSJ (town council) came and took away the chinese banner. gee.....
Friday, November 16, 2007
stronger sentiments
looks like sentiments are getting stronger... what do you ppl say? are these accusations true?? (i mean is it possible?? all these happening right before our eyes all these years and we did nothing???) any personal experiences to confirm the following?
got the following via email...
In 2004, Morgan Stanley issued a report that estimated that over 100 Billion US Dollars (360 Billion Ringgit) had been lost to Malay patronage in the 20 years preceding 2003. (1984 to 2003) One
economist estimates that in the 36 years of its' existence, the NEP has been used to channel over ONE TRILLION RINGGIT to the Malay community through ASN, ASB and other related Govt policies.
Since 1970, the Govt has used the NEP to divert education, employment and every other conceivable benefit to the Malays. These measures have largely been successful with all the top posts in GLCs, Government, Universities, Public listed companies and practically every single
area that the Govt has any control over being reserved for one race. No company may be listed with a lower than 30% Bumi equity but there is absolutely no problem if it is otherwise. Some industries have a mandatory 51% Bumi ownership and some industries are reserved exclusively for them. Petronas for example only employs Malays for it's top managerial and executive positions and awards contracts only to Malays.
ALL Govt and Municipal contracts are reserved to class "F" Bumi contractors. All the proposed projects under the 9th Malaysia Plan thus far are reserved for 100% Bumi owned companies. Even open tender projects are awarded to Malays even if their prices are higher with blatantly inferior materials. Micro business loans, business licenses, discounts on property purchases, new Govt employment, EVEN LICENSES FOR HAWKER STALLS are reserved for one race. The list goes on and on but the summary is that the Malays now believes undoubtedly that he is racially privileged and it is their right ASLI's figures of 45% are opposed to the Govt's 18.9% because, firstly, equity value is
calculated at par value. For example, if you hold 1,000 Maxis shares of RM 5/- market value each, the Govt says that it is only worth RM 250.00 as these shares have a par value of 25 cents each. If you owned a company with a paid up value of RM 2/- but conducted business worth millions of Ringgit worth of transactions, the Govt values that company at RM 2/-.
The chief setbacks of the abuses of the NEP are rampant corruption and cronyism, worsening racial polarization, unrelenting brain drains, warped educational system, thwarted economic competitiveness, ineffectual bureaucracy, retarded economic growth and perverted social values. Such anachronistic and regressive policy has no place in the present globalizing world, and for that matter, in any civilized society.
PM Badawi recently intensified the imprint of the perverted NEP philosophy by prohibiting inter-religious and inter-racial discourse which would otherwise have contributed to greater understanding and harmony among the races. Consider the hegemony this has created……..
The Jasin MP's saga of cheating millions from Customs over timber imports went unpunished. APs are reserved for Bumis only and despite the millions that each of them make year after year, a senator's son has the audacity to clone the APs several times and the whole thing gets swept under the carpet. A Port Klang councilor buys a 43,000 sq ft plot of land set aside for low cost housing valued at 1.8 million Ringgit for 180k and builds a palace without any approval. He gets fined RM 5,000 and still has 30 days from today to submit his building plans. Yesterday, despite all the bad press this issue got, the Selangor state Govt confirms his position and that of his son and daughter in law as councilors. The message is clear. Power has shifted from the people to the executive.
The whole issue of Bumi chauvinism started at last year's UMNO assembly when the very very vocal UMNO Youth leaders stated in short that "It's our turn to be rich." This greed is not going to end. We as a nation of loyal citizens have to put a dent into this rubbish for the sake of our children.
We don't need a change in Govt. We need a stronger opposition. We need to send a message to the powers that be that we will not accept second class status for our children.
(name removed)
got the following via email...
In 2004, Morgan Stanley issued a report that estimated that over 100 Billion US Dollars (360 Billion Ringgit) had been lost to Malay patronage in the 20 years preceding 2003. (1984 to 2003) One
economist estimates that in the 36 years of its' existence, the NEP has been used to channel over ONE TRILLION RINGGIT to the Malay community through ASN, ASB and other related Govt policies.
Since 1970, the Govt has used the NEP to divert education, employment and every other conceivable benefit to the Malays. These measures have largely been successful with all the top posts in GLCs, Government, Universities, Public listed companies and practically every single
area that the Govt has any control over being reserved for one race. No company may be listed with a lower than 30% Bumi equity but there is absolutely no problem if it is otherwise. Some industries have a mandatory 51% Bumi ownership and some industries are reserved exclusively for them. Petronas for example only employs Malays for it's top managerial and executive positions and awards contracts only to Malays.
ALL Govt and Municipal contracts are reserved to class "F" Bumi contractors. All the proposed projects under the 9th Malaysia Plan thus far are reserved for 100% Bumi owned companies. Even open tender projects are awarded to Malays even if their prices are higher with blatantly inferior materials. Micro business loans, business licenses, discounts on property purchases, new Govt employment, EVEN LICENSES FOR HAWKER STALLS are reserved for one race. The list goes on and on but the summary is that the Malays now believes undoubtedly that he is racially privileged and it is their right ASLI's figures of 45% are opposed to the Govt's 18.9% because, firstly, equity value is
calculated at par value. For example, if you hold 1,000 Maxis shares of RM 5/- market value each, the Govt says that it is only worth RM 250.00 as these shares have a par value of 25 cents each. If you owned a company with a paid up value of RM 2/- but conducted business worth millions of Ringgit worth of transactions, the Govt values that company at RM 2/-.
The chief setbacks of the abuses of the NEP are rampant corruption and cronyism, worsening racial polarization, unrelenting brain drains, warped educational system, thwarted economic competitiveness, ineffectual bureaucracy, retarded economic growth and perverted social values. Such anachronistic and regressive policy has no place in the present globalizing world, and for that matter, in any civilized society.
PM Badawi recently intensified the imprint of the perverted NEP philosophy by prohibiting inter-religious and inter-racial discourse which would otherwise have contributed to greater understanding and harmony among the races. Consider the hegemony this has created……..
The Jasin MP's saga of cheating millions from Customs over timber imports went unpunished. APs are reserved for Bumis only and despite the millions that each of them make year after year, a senator's son has the audacity to clone the APs several times and the whole thing gets swept under the carpet. A Port Klang councilor buys a 43,000 sq ft plot of land set aside for low cost housing valued at 1.8 million Ringgit for 180k and builds a palace without any approval. He gets fined RM 5,000 and still has 30 days from today to submit his building plans. Yesterday, despite all the bad press this issue got, the Selangor state Govt confirms his position and that of his son and daughter in law as councilors. The message is clear. Power has shifted from the people to the executive.
The whole issue of Bumi chauvinism started at last year's UMNO assembly when the very very vocal UMNO Youth leaders stated in short that "It's our turn to be rich." This greed is not going to end. We as a nation of loyal citizens have to put a dent into this rubbish for the sake of our children.
We don't need a change in Govt. We need a stronger opposition. We need to send a message to the powers that be that we will not accept second class status for our children.
(name removed)
RM2.45
wow.. i've earned a total of RM2.45 from nuffnang!!!! so excited!!! i'm so on my way to being rich and famous..!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
fried french people
my friend dede informed me that there are fried french people available in salmon steak restaurant in SS15, subang jaya...
on the menu :
french fried ............................................RM3.00
KAKAKAKAKAKKAakaakkakakkakakakaAKKAKAKAKAKAKKA
on the menu :
french fried ............................................RM3.00
KAKAKAKAKAKKAakaakkakakkakakakaAKKAKAKAKAKAKKA
Friday, October 26, 2007
nothing's forever
i was watching an interesting movie. the last 15 minutes of it anyways... and it was about first love. boy and girl was probably 12/ 13.
the mom told the boy that...maybe somethings are not meant to last forever. it'a like writings in the sky. all that for those few beautiful moments.
the boy asked the dad... why don't love last forever? dad says... long long time ago, dad and mom used to be in love. really in love with each other. as time goes by, there were things left unsaid. and over time, these things accumulate. and it came to a point where, they didn't know what to say to each other anymore.
i suppose everybody would be guilty of that. there are times when one keep quiet just to avoid conflict/ argument. but these things you so wanted to say, never really go away. it is just kept in you.
spring clean time? isn't it true that if two ppl are in love, there should not be anything that one would be afraid to say to the other?
the mom told the boy that...maybe somethings are not meant to last forever. it'a like writings in the sky. all that for those few beautiful moments.
the boy asked the dad... why don't love last forever? dad says... long long time ago, dad and mom used to be in love. really in love with each other. as time goes by, there were things left unsaid. and over time, these things accumulate. and it came to a point where, they didn't know what to say to each other anymore.
i suppose everybody would be guilty of that. there are times when one keep quiet just to avoid conflict/ argument. but these things you so wanted to say, never really go away. it is just kept in you.
spring clean time? isn't it true that if two ppl are in love, there should not be anything that one would be afraid to say to the other?
Thursday, October 25, 2007
paparazi
had a taste of what it is like to be paparazi!! may and i went to canon expo and we saw simon yam!!!
had our turn, went off the continue taking pictures from outside the cordoned off area... and he turned to us and posed!!!! :)~
had our turn, went off the continue taking pictures from outside the cordoned off area... and he turned to us and posed!!!! :)~
then when photo session was over, he came over to us and took another picture with us! as u can see, may was taken by suprise... didn't know whether to smile or not!!! (so cute!!!) kakakakakaakakaakaka
peedabeliusi gathering...da food
the curve, nan xiang??? the place opposite italianies (spelling rite or not?)....
peedabeliusi gathering... (part II)
of course, not forgetting the all important.. brown cow
siau kia's son, shaun
siau kia's son, shaun
siau kia's hubby david
peedabeliusi gathering...
fifi back from UK... that's why gather ler...
pinky da piggy....
pinky da piggy....
tat's blue moo... also back from UK for good... why ar?? ... "oh.. to settle down lor" ... all set to be lady of leisure whilst her hubby traded crowning glory for MD position. she's gonna keep herself busy climbing mountains.
angie... da future partner of peedabeliusi... stressed..
the siau kia (my guru)... with daugther sam :)
Form5 mates @tgif (part II)
vietnam?? here i come??
de the lawyer... not very hapee... coz was very hungwee....
de the lawyer... not very hapee... coz was very hungwee....
very hungwee.... so need alcohol...(alittle bit... and she repeats "i am NOT an alcoholic")
here's hsinyee again... proj mgmt is no fun... any other jobs out there?
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Form5 mates @tgif
siew ping... studying bacteria... and how they can make plastic??? good luck in US dearie... austin... finance for property developer? kum hon, singapore, software???
claudine - obgyn prod?
claudine - obgyn prod?
terence - kimberly clark.... why people buy like that??? hsinyee, da best search engine user ever ever!!!
may - pace pace... pace pace....
wonder what everybody'll be up to in another 5 years time?
Monday, October 22, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
how do u know he/ she is "THE ONE"?
1) when u see him/ her, got spotlight effect. sometimes, angels sing.
2) you never ever want to see him/ her hurt. never want to see an ounce of pain in his/ her eyes.
3) u just like. cannot stop thinking. cannot explain. more than u like urself?
4) heart do a double somersault? and another one and another.... u feel faint?
has anybody actually experienced any of the above?? or any other "signs"? care to share?
of course all these are "at that moment" ler... nothing lasts forever. again, one will never know if it's the best choice. just have to decide, and stick to it. easier said than done? well, yea. that's life. deal with it. maybe the biggest mistake would be to think? can decide by just "feel"? is that wise? would that be a bigger mistake? listen to friends? even more bigger mistake and so "high school"... sigh.
wah... dunno ler. can some of the happy-ever-after ppl shed some light?
2) you never ever want to see him/ her hurt. never want to see an ounce of pain in his/ her eyes.
3) u just like. cannot stop thinking. cannot explain. more than u like urself?
4) heart do a double somersault? and another one and another.... u feel faint?
has anybody actually experienced any of the above?? or any other "signs"? care to share?
of course all these are "at that moment" ler... nothing lasts forever. again, one will never know if it's the best choice. just have to decide, and stick to it. easier said than done? well, yea. that's life. deal with it. maybe the biggest mistake would be to think? can decide by just "feel"? is that wise? would that be a bigger mistake? listen to friends? even more bigger mistake and so "high school"... sigh.
wah... dunno ler. can some of the happy-ever-after ppl shed some light?
facebook-ed
i've been facebook-ed. my gmail is flooded. notification list is super long. and i have yet to explore the platform?/ application?/?? anybody wanna shed some light as to what is the whole purpose of this facebook thing? and why would i wanna throw a sheep at my dearest friends?
meanwhile, my blog has been kinda stagnant lately. why? coz i was busy (the past few days anyways). busy with what? life changing experience i suppose. what kinda life changing experience? where do i start...?
first and foremost, got a not too gentle reminder not to take friends for granted. not to treat anybody as plan B or C or Z! oopss... to much negativity. i mean appreciate my friends. to really "be there" body, mind and soul when i am with these bunch of friends.
secondly and thirdly, 2 changes, internal and external, which i shall not elaborate. these should be noticeable once it's completed! even the internal one? the answer is yes.
why the changes? because i suppose it made sense. after an analysis, i do agree with the conclusion that i have been in a protected environment. with friends who are supportive and like me the way i am. and it's not like that out there. other ppl do look at the superficial stuff. and i suppose sometimes, it's not enuf, being good enuf for my friends. should be good enuf for strangers too.
btw, anybody have contacts in canon? wanna get flash. and battery. for EOS 400D. cheap. help!
meanwhile, my blog has been kinda stagnant lately. why? coz i was busy (the past few days anyways). busy with what? life changing experience i suppose. what kinda life changing experience? where do i start...?
first and foremost, got a not too gentle reminder not to take friends for granted. not to treat anybody as plan B or C or Z! oopss... to much negativity. i mean appreciate my friends. to really "be there" body, mind and soul when i am with these bunch of friends.
secondly and thirdly, 2 changes, internal and external, which i shall not elaborate. these should be noticeable once it's completed! even the internal one? the answer is yes.
why the changes? because i suppose it made sense. after an analysis, i do agree with the conclusion that i have been in a protected environment. with friends who are supportive and like me the way i am. and it's not like that out there. other ppl do look at the superficial stuff. and i suppose sometimes, it's not enuf, being good enuf for my friends. should be good enuf for strangers too.
btw, anybody have contacts in canon? wanna get flash. and battery. for EOS 400D. cheap. help!
car for sale
friend of a friend selling car coz going other country for work. if interested, call me! or leave a comment.
Model : Honda City 1.5 VTEC
Year : June 2006
Colour : Silver Metalic
Mileage : 16,000km (approx 34km per day)
Conditions : Tip-top condition, accident free
Selling price : RM70,000 negotiable (Tips : Survey from market with samecar conditions and most of the sellers marking their price > RM70,000)
Others : V-kool tinted glass, balance of 1-year free car service from Honda
Model : Honda City 1.5 VTEC
Year : June 2006
Colour : Silver Metalic
Mileage : 16,000km (approx 34km per day)
Conditions : Tip-top condition, accident free
Selling price : RM70,000 negotiable (Tips : Survey from market with samecar conditions and most of the sellers marking their price > RM70,000)
Others : V-kool tinted glass, balance of 1-year free car service from Honda
Thursday, October 11, 2007
it's 3 am
... and i am sitting in front of my laptop, thinking of something worthy to blog about. but nothing comes to mind. so, i suppose it'll be another crapping post. where i just type whatever comes to mind. and i guess the first thing that appeared was "did i take any of my very good friends for granted recently?"
dictionary.com : "take for granted" = to use, accept, or treat in a careless or indifferent manner
not suprisingly, the answer is yes! unfortunately, i think i did. treat in a careless manner. but what goes around comes around. so, yea, retribution!
anyways, the question is... why does it happen? why do we take ppl for granted? i suppose the most common victims are family members. because they can't not be family members anymore? but that is not true. divorce. disown. death?.
second in the list is probably very good friends. the ones whom you know you can count on. the ones who will never let you down. i guess in a way these friends have been able to provide a sense of security? like they will never ever leave? like they will be just a phone call away. any time, any day. these are the ones who will drop everything and come to your rescue when you are in dire straits. they are also the ones who really like to see you. really enjoy your company. really appreciate your friendship. and these are the ones treated carelessly??? gosh. will not let that happen.
third in the list, i guess, will be people who you think like you?! i suppose if they like you, they tend to tolerate a whole lot of shit? but they can change. they can don't like you. it's totally possible.
isn't it ironic how sometimes, we spend a lot of time on things we know we think are important. and by the time we realise those things are not important, and how little time we spend on things that really matter, we lose those things that really matter.
dictionary.com : "take for granted" = to use, accept, or treat in a careless or indifferent manner
not suprisingly, the answer is yes! unfortunately, i think i did. treat in a careless manner. but what goes around comes around. so, yea, retribution!
anyways, the question is... why does it happen? why do we take ppl for granted? i suppose the most common victims are family members. because they can't not be family members anymore? but that is not true. divorce. disown. death?.
second in the list is probably very good friends. the ones whom you know you can count on. the ones who will never let you down. i guess in a way these friends have been able to provide a sense of security? like they will never ever leave? like they will be just a phone call away. any time, any day. these are the ones who will drop everything and come to your rescue when you are in dire straits. they are also the ones who really like to see you. really enjoy your company. really appreciate your friendship. and these are the ones treated carelessly??? gosh. will not let that happen.
third in the list, i guess, will be people who you think like you?! i suppose if they like you, they tend to tolerate a whole lot of shit? but they can change. they can don't like you. it's totally possible.
isn't it ironic how sometimes, we spend a lot of time on things we know we think are important. and by the time we realise those things are not important, and how little time we spend on things that really matter, we lose those things that really matter.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
are u a registered voter?
Can check mar... at :
http://daftarj.spr.gov.my/daftarbi.asp
If need to change details, can go post opis. If need to register, also go to post opis.
p/s: info courtesy of my ever informative friend, hy.
http://daftarj.spr.gov.my/daftarbi.asp
If need to change details, can go post opis. If need to register, also go to post opis.
p/s: info courtesy of my ever informative friend, hy.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
lantern
start small. a friend said. sell nasi lemak!! ??????? (when i can't cook to save myself??!!!) that's after i was told by another friend that my business proposal, which was in its infancy, would never suvive. as a matter of fact, it was in sperm and ovum stage. and i was told it would not become zigot.
i suppose those who knows me would assume that statement is enough to spur me to start to prove the other friend wrong. but i thought that would, again, be like jumping into a hole thinking it is filled with champagne AFTER being told it is filled with quicksand AND you can kind of see the sand already. which would be pretty dumb.
another well meaning one feedback and said "you always have big ideas. start small..."
ok... will do.
then she said let's do a lantern making contest. and i said ok! i'll make a fish. with a tiny disco light spinning inside. speakers mounted on it's gills, blasting vengaboy's songs! it shall be an ah beng fish!!!
oh yea, start small. i think i'll make a fish.
i suppose those who knows me would assume that statement is enough to spur me to start to prove the other friend wrong. but i thought that would, again, be like jumping into a hole thinking it is filled with champagne AFTER being told it is filled with quicksand AND you can kind of see the sand already. which would be pretty dumb.
another well meaning one feedback and said "you always have big ideas. start small..."
ok... will do.
then she said let's do a lantern making contest. and i said ok! i'll make a fish. with a tiny disco light spinning inside. speakers mounted on it's gills, blasting vengaboy's songs! it shall be an ah beng fish!!!
oh yea, start small. i think i'll make a fish.
hibernation
imagine a cold cold wintery day and you crawled under a nice fluffy comforter... feeling warm and safe, would it not be easy to just sleep the day away... i suppose that's why bears hibernate? guess national geography would not agree with that. but it must be pretty comfy in that fur coat on a cold cold wintry day.
talk about crapping.
anyways, i suppose hibernation period would not be bad. sometimes being so caught up with everything and everybody, people get lost. lost in everybody else's dreams and expectations. and lose sight of one's own. hibernation is not uncommon. alot of people "find" themselves by going somewhere else. some just "disappear" for awhile. definitely need to hibernate a little while.
talk about crapping.
anyways, i suppose hibernation period would not be bad. sometimes being so caught up with everything and everybody, people get lost. lost in everybody else's dreams and expectations. and lose sight of one's own. hibernation is not uncommon. alot of people "find" themselves by going somewhere else. some just "disappear" for awhile. definitely need to hibernate a little while.
Monday, September 10, 2007
shot down
the piece of styrofoam...floating happily by.... shot down... M16 style... pain... for a moment it was like how they have described in books. life flashing by. how it started. what went wrong. and current state. which did not quite feel wrong. till now...
then it was no more pain. just a numb floaty feeling. aimless.
fighting to come back is difficult. tiring. pulling yourself together when you have been torn apart into a million pieces. every piece seems to be going in different direction. even more difficult when you don't know if you want to come back. when it is so much more easier to just float away (though it was much more easier to float away unaware that you are floating away... floating away fully aware of your state is a different story...)
aimlessness kills. kills the soul.
msg. take stock. select direction. move. msg received.
then it was no more pain. just a numb floaty feeling. aimless.
fighting to come back is difficult. tiring. pulling yourself together when you have been torn apart into a million pieces. every piece seems to be going in different direction. even more difficult when you don't know if you want to come back. when it is so much more easier to just float away (though it was much more easier to float away unaware that you are floating away... floating away fully aware of your state is a different story...)
aimlessness kills. kills the soul.
msg. take stock. select direction. move. msg received.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
illusion....
sometimes don't you wonder if the "opposition" we have is real? or is it all an illusion engineered by the ruling to give a false sense of democracy? think about it... how many ppl in their right mind would say the things said by our very entertaining opposition???
an interesting concept. maybe i should hire somebody really terrible to work in the company i work in. a nightmare of an employee. then by contrast, my boss should think i'm a super duper employee worth every effort to retain!!!
hhmm... makes me wonder how often is this concept used...
an interesting concept. maybe i should hire somebody really terrible to work in the company i work in. a nightmare of an employee. then by contrast, my boss should think i'm a super duper employee worth every effort to retain!!!
hhmm... makes me wonder how often is this concept used...
Monday, September 03, 2007
a whole new perspective...
a was bitching about how racial discrimination in the country is getting worse and how one race's apathetic nature contributes to the situation, etc etc... when a very wise friend gave me a whole new perspective...
1. may 13 was engineered by a few people to enable the implementation of policies to close the wealth gap
2. only selected group really benefit from the scheme
3. may 13's purpose was also to create fear... to make it a "sensitive" issue... so that no one talks about it... no one understands it.... and so, nobody can do anything about it
4. the idea that one race was making all the money was planted into the another race's mind... the idea that the latter race is benefiting from the policies implemented is planted into the former race's mind... but look at rural areas... is the latter race really benefiting?
if the plan is not working after so many years, why isn't it abolished yet? is a balance ever going to be achieved?
5. if it's not abolished and if the balance is not achieved after so many years... why not? if the plan is good does that not mean implementation is not done well? who is accountable? why isn't the person held responsible? should another person maybe be elected to make it happen? why not change leadership then?
what say you? make sense? isn't it interesting? a whole new perspective~
i guess sometimes, we can't look at the things certain parties want us to look at. look beyond. at the big picture. all are being manipulated for the benefit of a selected few.
1. may 13 was engineered by a few people to enable the implementation of policies to close the wealth gap
2. only selected group really benefit from the scheme
3. may 13's purpose was also to create fear... to make it a "sensitive" issue... so that no one talks about it... no one understands it.... and so, nobody can do anything about it
4. the idea that one race was making all the money was planted into the another race's mind... the idea that the latter race is benefiting from the policies implemented is planted into the former race's mind... but look at rural areas... is the latter race really benefiting?
if the plan is not working after so many years, why isn't it abolished yet? is a balance ever going to be achieved?
5. if it's not abolished and if the balance is not achieved after so many years... why not? if the plan is good does that not mean implementation is not done well? who is accountable? why isn't the person held responsible? should another person maybe be elected to make it happen? why not change leadership then?
what say you? make sense? isn't it interesting? a whole new perspective~
i guess sometimes, we can't look at the things certain parties want us to look at. look beyond. at the big picture. all are being manipulated for the benefit of a selected few.
Saturday, September 01, 2007
non attachment
i read this very interesting book titled "How to develop happiness in daily living".
it's a compilation of a few write ups by different people who practices buddhism. i don't subscribe to a particular religion. but i do believe there is a creator. "the beginning" is probably just one event involving the same people. and the different religions are, maybe, interpretation by men, of that same event, or maybe of different phases of the event. thereby, appearing to be different. but in fact, are the same things!
however, i do not know much about all different religions out there. so, i shall not, or rather, cannot expound futher!
but there is one particular article which caught my attention. i have heard of the concept of non attachment before. but never understood it. it was written very well in this book. and since there is no copyright, i tot i would like to share the following lines from the book.
it was written by one ajahn sumedho. it says "first, you must recognize what attachment is, and then you let go. That's when you realize non-attachment. However, if you're coming from the view that you shouldn't be attached, then that's still not it."
does being attached to things bring happiness or suffering?
not being attached does not mean you should get rid of your family members (eg. your wife). it means freeing yourself from the wrong views about yourself and your wife. then there would be love, but it is not attached. not distorting. not clinging. not grasping. the empty mind is quite capable of caring about others and loving in the pure sense of love.
parents say how much suffering there is in having children, because there's a lot of wanting. wanting them to be a certain way. this creates anguish and suffering in our minds.
the empty mind - the pure mind - is not a blank where you're not feeling or caring about anything. it's an effulgence of the mind. it's a brightness that is truly sensitive and accepting.
it's an ability to accept life as it is. when we accept life as it is, we can respond appropriately to the way we're experiencing it, rather than just reacting out of fear and aversion.
i say, interesting!! those are just excerpts from the write up. having no expectations whatsoever on other people. loving them in the purest sense. as they are? wanting a person to be like this or wanting a person to be like that normally happens when you do take the person as yours. your wife. your girlfriend. your child. your protege. your good friend. your SOMETHING! i suppose that's attachment? then when the other party doesn't turn out as expected. there is suffering?? interesting.... but if it is not going to be yours, then there is no "vested interests"... then can there be love? love of the purest sense??? but then again, there is normally love if there are vested interests.. no??
raining.... yay!!! i think i'll go love my bed for a little while. i'm sure it's pretty pure... open window. smell the rain. listen to the rhythm. crawl under the blankie. hide from the whole world. for a little while... have a good saturday ppl! :)
it's a compilation of a few write ups by different people who practices buddhism. i don't subscribe to a particular religion. but i do believe there is a creator. "the beginning" is probably just one event involving the same people. and the different religions are, maybe, interpretation by men, of that same event, or maybe of different phases of the event. thereby, appearing to be different. but in fact, are the same things!
however, i do not know much about all different religions out there. so, i shall not, or rather, cannot expound futher!
but there is one particular article which caught my attention. i have heard of the concept of non attachment before. but never understood it. it was written very well in this book. and since there is no copyright, i tot i would like to share the following lines from the book.
it was written by one ajahn sumedho. it says "first, you must recognize what attachment is, and then you let go. That's when you realize non-attachment. However, if you're coming from the view that you shouldn't be attached, then that's still not it."
does being attached to things bring happiness or suffering?
not being attached does not mean you should get rid of your family members (eg. your wife). it means freeing yourself from the wrong views about yourself and your wife. then there would be love, but it is not attached. not distorting. not clinging. not grasping. the empty mind is quite capable of caring about others and loving in the pure sense of love.
parents say how much suffering there is in having children, because there's a lot of wanting. wanting them to be a certain way. this creates anguish and suffering in our minds.
the empty mind - the pure mind - is not a blank where you're not feeling or caring about anything. it's an effulgence of the mind. it's a brightness that is truly sensitive and accepting.
it's an ability to accept life as it is. when we accept life as it is, we can respond appropriately to the way we're experiencing it, rather than just reacting out of fear and aversion.
i say, interesting!! those are just excerpts from the write up. having no expectations whatsoever on other people. loving them in the purest sense. as they are? wanting a person to be like this or wanting a person to be like that normally happens when you do take the person as yours. your wife. your girlfriend. your child. your protege. your good friend. your SOMETHING! i suppose that's attachment? then when the other party doesn't turn out as expected. there is suffering?? interesting.... but if it is not going to be yours, then there is no "vested interests"... then can there be love? love of the purest sense??? but then again, there is normally love if there are vested interests.. no??
raining.... yay!!! i think i'll go love my bed for a little while. i'm sure it's pretty pure... open window. smell the rain. listen to the rhythm. crawl under the blankie. hide from the whole world. for a little while... have a good saturday ppl! :)
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
french manicure
love frenchies !!~~ but does anybody have any idea how difficult it is to maintain the gorgeous looking paint job??? how to prevent denting or scratching the surface. what littlest work must be done to get the leastest damage??
wanna eat cake
it's funny how we really can't have the cake AND eat it!
it's almost always one or another. good which comes with the bad. how attaining every want would involve some form of sacrifice.
high paying job, more work or more stress. joy of having babies, a need to provide for them. more tasty food, possibly more health issues. (et cetera...)
unless...
they say mediocrity might be the answer.
don't aim for the best? being kinda happy is suppose to mean less problems? less pay means less stress? less pleasure means less pain??
boils down to mindset. first of all, less or more is relative. mediocrity is relative. happiness is relative. relative to who? it's up to you isn't it? who you want to compare yourself to... whether you want to compare at all?
some say don't compare, it's not necessary. some say compare, it'll drive you. i say compare if you feel like it. no hard and fast rules. just do whatever makes you happy. at this moment. too rash? yea... maybe a little bit too rash. just do it, taking into account the other factors that matters to you... may not make such a great tagline.
but who's to say what's right or wrong? who would know? maybe on what everybody calls judgement day. maybe we would be able to view a video of all the possible permutations of the many decisions we have made and will make in our lives? maybe we can sit through the show making all the choices using a remote control and follow through till the end. and we would finally know whether we did right or wrong. but by then, does it matter?
those who are employees may be able to relate. i think throughout your lives you would have met ppl who are very "loyal" to the company. the person works hard. butters the boss. gets on competitors nerves. saves company's money and pisses off the vendors. and ppl go "why?" it's not his company. why do that when in the end, he gets a pittance relative to amount he brought in, maybe some recognition... in exchange for what?
maybe it's the same for every human? the body is like a collection of cells and a soul. the body = the company. the soul = the employee. we do everything that is suppose to be good for "ourself". i suppose terminal illness would be VSS. and it is lifetime employment. but in the end, would the soul really benefit after having acted in the best interest of the "person"?
losing track... too much crappin'.... and it's 11:37pm. good nite everybody...
it's almost always one or another. good which comes with the bad. how attaining every want would involve some form of sacrifice.
high paying job, more work or more stress. joy of having babies, a need to provide for them. more tasty food, possibly more health issues. (et cetera...)
unless...
they say mediocrity might be the answer.
don't aim for the best? being kinda happy is suppose to mean less problems? less pay means less stress? less pleasure means less pain??
boils down to mindset. first of all, less or more is relative. mediocrity is relative. happiness is relative. relative to who? it's up to you isn't it? who you want to compare yourself to... whether you want to compare at all?
some say don't compare, it's not necessary. some say compare, it'll drive you. i say compare if you feel like it. no hard and fast rules. just do whatever makes you happy. at this moment. too rash? yea... maybe a little bit too rash. just do it, taking into account the other factors that matters to you... may not make such a great tagline.
but who's to say what's right or wrong? who would know? maybe on what everybody calls judgement day. maybe we would be able to view a video of all the possible permutations of the many decisions we have made and will make in our lives? maybe we can sit through the show making all the choices using a remote control and follow through till the end. and we would finally know whether we did right or wrong. but by then, does it matter?
those who are employees may be able to relate. i think throughout your lives you would have met ppl who are very "loyal" to the company. the person works hard. butters the boss. gets on competitors nerves. saves company's money and pisses off the vendors. and ppl go "why?" it's not his company. why do that when in the end, he gets a pittance relative to amount he brought in, maybe some recognition... in exchange for what?
maybe it's the same for every human? the body is like a collection of cells and a soul. the body = the company. the soul = the employee. we do everything that is suppose to be good for "ourself". i suppose terminal illness would be VSS. and it is lifetime employment. but in the end, would the soul really benefit after having acted in the best interest of the "person"?
losing track... too much crappin'.... and it's 11:37pm. good nite everybody...
Friday, August 24, 2007
childish?
there have been quite a number of comments saying that it's childish to pursue a matter so trivial as a tennis game gone wrong.
maybe it is?
but i suppose trivial to you may not be trivial to me.
AND i personally feel it is a lot less childish when one can express how one feels, talk about it and resolve the issue. would it be a lot better to walk away, feeling bad, keeping it to oneself and pretending like nothing happened?
i suppose childish to you and childish to me is also different.
and alot of ppl have said the matter was pursued, yes, "at whose expense?" i think i have delievered the message, whether it is received in its entirety is beyond my control. i have less friends? more hits! i have discovered that my friends are fiercely protective! :) they are also generally calm and collected and level headed (it shows through the comments written) ... there are ppl out there who are not my friends trying very hard to provoke me and my friends, which then made me very glad i do not know them...
so, i would say "expense"? :)
to all those who had texted and asked if i am ok with all the happenings in the blog... i'm goooooooooodddddddddd :) teng kiu for concern... *muacks*... fine with everything coz i am very sure about what i felt, what was done, who is impt, who is not, who needs to be answered, who can be ignored. and my friends know it too!
maybe it is?
but i suppose trivial to you may not be trivial to me.
AND i personally feel it is a lot less childish when one can express how one feels, talk about it and resolve the issue. would it be a lot better to walk away, feeling bad, keeping it to oneself and pretending like nothing happened?
i suppose childish to you and childish to me is also different.
and alot of ppl have said the matter was pursued, yes, "at whose expense?" i think i have delievered the message, whether it is received in its entirety is beyond my control. i have less friends? more hits! i have discovered that my friends are fiercely protective! :) they are also generally calm and collected and level headed (it shows through the comments written) ... there are ppl out there who are not my friends trying very hard to provoke me and my friends, which then made me very glad i do not know them...
so, i would say "expense"? :)
to all those who had texted and asked if i am ok with all the happenings in the blog... i'm goooooooooodddddddddd :) teng kiu for concern... *muacks*... fine with everything coz i am very sure about what i felt, what was done, who is impt, who is not, who needs to be answered, who can be ignored. and my friends know it too!
love me friendsssssssssss!!!
wow... i have the most superb friends ever. and it looks like other ppl have superb friends too.
i have been getting many interesting comments since the "controversial" posting involving team A/ team B. there are many postings from many anoynymouses who claims to be unrelated to team A/ team B/ and me!
however, from their comments, it seems like they are just protective friends of the one of the many teams. which is great. i am happy for these ppl who have such loyal friends. even if the way their loyalty is expressed leaves much to be desired. ie. by provoking my friends and trying to provoke me. but i am glad to note my friends have managed excellently!!! (lots of muacks!)
i must say, firstly, that i alot of comments are valid to a certain extent. different ppl have different comments because of their different experiences in life. conclusion no 1 : you ppl are not arguing! just commenting of different aspects of the same thing.
the only reason why it sounds like an argument is because a person is singled out, the their earlier posting is misintepreted (intentionally or otherwise, i have no idea).
for example, the one who singled out mf's comments. she was just saying that she can tell who are her real friends when she was through a period of time in her life when things were not easy. and mr anonymous comes up with come examples of what he thinks would have to be done to be regarded as a real friend. those examples might seem cynical. but they might be what he has experienced. don't buy, no friend.
but mr anonymous must also realise that there are many ways to be supportive, other than the monetary way. listening to the person sales pitch, providing feedback, generally being supportive when most ppl are turning away, are some of the stuff a friend can do to help another friend. so, mf and mr anonymous are not disagreeing. just different views of the same thing.
and jaimie's posting. she's a lovely, soft, and very protective friend. (in case you have not noted, being protective is a very motherly thing). but somemore mr anonymouses (i think there are more than one there) decide to select certain lines in her comments to misinterprete rather than see the true message being delivered. she was stating the fact that i felt my friends were not treated nicely and that she was proud to have me as a friend (and the feeling is mutual darling!!)
how did all those other comments come about (not that i am not happy to get that many comments!! :)) is just because i have new readers (yay!!!) which are from a different background, different upbringing, different ways of showing loyalty, different ways of interpreting stuff written. which is fine.
i am proud of how all my lovely friends have managed. how they have managed to remained calm and collected even when being provoked. how they have commented in as civil a way as possible, at the same time remaining fiercely protective and loyal! mf, km&jc, yean, jaimie, cell, love u ppl!!
i have been getting many interesting comments since the "controversial" posting involving team A/ team B. there are many postings from many anoynymouses who claims to be unrelated to team A/ team B/ and me!
however, from their comments, it seems like they are just protective friends of the one of the many teams. which is great. i am happy for these ppl who have such loyal friends. even if the way their loyalty is expressed leaves much to be desired. ie. by provoking my friends and trying to provoke me. but i am glad to note my friends have managed excellently!!! (lots of muacks!)
i must say, firstly, that i alot of comments are valid to a certain extent. different ppl have different comments because of their different experiences in life. conclusion no 1 : you ppl are not arguing! just commenting of different aspects of the same thing.
the only reason why it sounds like an argument is because a person is singled out, the their earlier posting is misintepreted (intentionally or otherwise, i have no idea).
for example, the one who singled out mf's comments. she was just saying that she can tell who are her real friends when she was through a period of time in her life when things were not easy. and mr anonymous comes up with come examples of what he thinks would have to be done to be regarded as a real friend. those examples might seem cynical. but they might be what he has experienced. don't buy, no friend.
but mr anonymous must also realise that there are many ways to be supportive, other than the monetary way. listening to the person sales pitch, providing feedback, generally being supportive when most ppl are turning away, are some of the stuff a friend can do to help another friend. so, mf and mr anonymous are not disagreeing. just different views of the same thing.
and jaimie's posting. she's a lovely, soft, and very protective friend. (in case you have not noted, being protective is a very motherly thing). but somemore mr anonymouses (i think there are more than one there) decide to select certain lines in her comments to misinterprete rather than see the true message being delivered. she was stating the fact that i felt my friends were not treated nicely and that she was proud to have me as a friend (and the feeling is mutual darling!!)
how did all those other comments come about (not that i am not happy to get that many comments!! :)) is just because i have new readers (yay!!!) which are from a different background, different upbringing, different ways of showing loyalty, different ways of interpreting stuff written. which is fine.
i am proud of how all my lovely friends have managed. how they have managed to remained calm and collected even when being provoked. how they have commented in as civil a way as possible, at the same time remaining fiercely protective and loyal! mf, km&jc, yean, jaimie, cell, love u ppl!!
Sunday, August 19, 2007
that is what friends are for...
i have recently posted a rather controversial posting on this blog... (i finally got what my friends mean when they say controversial gets readers!)
and there was a comment which advised "do not burn bridges" and that "i might need them some day"...
i have not seen alot of things throughout these years of my life, but i have seen one thing. when times are good and things are going great, friends would be aplenty. when times are bad... really bad (many people may not experience these kind of bad times), those are the times when you would know, who your true friends are. and if they are true friends, the bridges would not burn so easily.
so, are all friends equal? ask yourself, aren't there friends that you would do more for? go the extra mile?
and just for the record, i do not make friends thinking they may come in handy one day.
AND it's not the numbers, it's the quality...
and there was a comment which advised "do not burn bridges" and that "i might need them some day"...
i have not seen alot of things throughout these years of my life, but i have seen one thing. when times are good and things are going great, friends would be aplenty. when times are bad... really bad (many people may not experience these kind of bad times), those are the times when you would know, who your true friends are. and if they are true friends, the bridges would not burn so easily.
so, are all friends equal? ask yourself, aren't there friends that you would do more for? go the extra mile?
and just for the record, i do not make friends thinking they may come in handy one day.
AND it's not the numbers, it's the quality...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
uncertainties...
there are a lot of uncertainties at the moment. a number of choices. all are tempting. all with uncertainties. some aspects are downright frightening!
i do not doubt my own capabilities (how about that for confidence?? too much?? misplaced??? ... anyways..), i do not doubt my ability to adapt, but i sometimes wonder (nowadays, a lot of the times i am wondering) if there are somethings that i might not be able to control in time to come?
then i tot, life is too short to consider those uncertainties. managed when the time comes? but then again, if it is foreseen, and yet i proceed... wouldn't that be a little bit on the stupid side?
it's like being in a jungle, seeing a nice clean pool, thinking should i jump into it? all signs are screaming mirage!!! don't jump!!! it's a pool of quicksand!!! and me being either stupid or overly optimistic, think, what if it's really a pool? life's too short. play hard?
i do not doubt my own capabilities (how about that for confidence?? too much?? misplaced??? ... anyways..), i do not doubt my ability to adapt, but i sometimes wonder (nowadays, a lot of the times i am wondering) if there are somethings that i might not be able to control in time to come?
then i tot, life is too short to consider those uncertainties. managed when the time comes? but then again, if it is foreseen, and yet i proceed... wouldn't that be a little bit on the stupid side?
it's like being in a jungle, seeing a nice clean pool, thinking should i jump into it? all signs are screaming mirage!!! don't jump!!! it's a pool of quicksand!!! and me being either stupid or overly optimistic, think, what if it's really a pool? life's too short. play hard?
sorely disappointed...
group A comprised of funny, sociable and seemingly genuinely nice ppl.
group B comprised of funny, genuinely nice and most-of-the-time-cliquish ppl.
group A met group B today. suprisingly, group B fared pretty well. significant effort put in to be friendly. no complaints despite the many things that can be bitched about. not a single comment on group A.
however, group A was sorely disappointing. as there very obvious display of unfriendliness. though, to be fair, not the whole group was at fault. but i suppose being a part of the group, one would generally react in respond to peer pressure! and part of group A very recently was very upset over the fact that certain parties are not genuine nor sincere in friendship. i say, look inward. are you genuine?
i was pretty pissed. and for a very long while, i was wondering if i was being a bitch, unnecessarily. maybe it's age, i thought...maybe even hormornes... over sensitive?... channelling other feelings out in form of anger???
after having given it much tot, i conclude that, no, it's none of the above. i think i just take it very personally when my good friends are not welcomed. if they are not good enough for you, then neither am i...
group B comprised of funny, genuinely nice and most-of-the-time-cliquish ppl.
group A met group B today. suprisingly, group B fared pretty well. significant effort put in to be friendly. no complaints despite the many things that can be bitched about. not a single comment on group A.
however, group A was sorely disappointing. as there very obvious display of unfriendliness. though, to be fair, not the whole group was at fault. but i suppose being a part of the group, one would generally react in respond to peer pressure! and part of group A very recently was very upset over the fact that certain parties are not genuine nor sincere in friendship. i say, look inward. are you genuine?
i was pretty pissed. and for a very long while, i was wondering if i was being a bitch, unnecessarily. maybe it's age, i thought...maybe even hormornes... over sensitive?... channelling other feelings out in form of anger???
after having given it much tot, i conclude that, no, it's none of the above. i think i just take it very personally when my good friends are not welcomed. if they are not good enough for you, then neither am i...
Monday, August 13, 2007
animal lovers we are.....
on the way back from PD, we stopped by the ostrich farm...
terence riding the ostrich...
terence riding the ostrich...
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