Tuesday, August 28, 2007

french manicure

love frenchies !!~~ but does anybody have any idea how difficult it is to maintain the gorgeous looking paint job??? how to prevent denting or scratching the surface. what littlest work must be done to get the leastest damage??

wanna eat cake

it's funny how we really can't have the cake AND eat it!

it's almost always one or another. good which comes with the bad. how attaining every want would involve some form of sacrifice.

high paying job, more work or more stress. joy of having babies, a need to provide for them. more tasty food, possibly more health issues. (et cetera...)

unless...

they say mediocrity might be the answer.

don't aim for the best? being kinda happy is suppose to mean less problems? less pay means less stress? less pleasure means less pain??

boils down to mindset. first of all, less or more is relative. mediocrity is relative. happiness is relative. relative to who? it's up to you isn't it? who you want to compare yourself to... whether you want to compare at all?

some say don't compare, it's not necessary. some say compare, it'll drive you. i say compare if you feel like it. no hard and fast rules. just do whatever makes you happy. at this moment. too rash? yea... maybe a little bit too rash. just do it, taking into account the other factors that matters to you... may not make such a great tagline.

but who's to say what's right or wrong? who would know? maybe on what everybody calls judgement day. maybe we would be able to view a video of all the possible permutations of the many decisions we have made and will make in our lives? maybe we can sit through the show making all the choices using a remote control and follow through till the end. and we would finally know whether we did right or wrong. but by then, does it matter?

those who are employees may be able to relate. i think throughout your lives you would have met ppl who are very "loyal" to the company. the person works hard. butters the boss. gets on competitors nerves. saves company's money and pisses off the vendors. and ppl go "why?" it's not his company. why do that when in the end, he gets a pittance relative to amount he brought in, maybe some recognition... in exchange for what?

maybe it's the same for every human? the body is like a collection of cells and a soul. the body = the company. the soul = the employee. we do everything that is suppose to be good for "ourself". i suppose terminal illness would be VSS. and it is lifetime employment. but in the end, would the soul really benefit after having acted in the best interest of the "person"?

losing track... too much crappin'.... and it's 11:37pm. good nite everybody...

Friday, August 24, 2007

childish?

there have been quite a number of comments saying that it's childish to pursue a matter so trivial as a tennis game gone wrong.

maybe it is?

but i suppose trivial to you may not be trivial to me.

AND i personally feel it is a lot less childish when one can express how one feels, talk about it and resolve the issue. would it be a lot better to walk away, feeling bad, keeping it to oneself and pretending like nothing happened?

i suppose childish to you and childish to me is also different.


and alot of ppl have said the matter was pursued, yes, "at whose expense?" i think i have delievered the message, whether it is received in its entirety is beyond my control. i have less friends? more hits! i have discovered that my friends are fiercely protective! :) they are also generally calm and collected and level headed (it shows through the comments written) ... there are ppl out there who are not my friends trying very hard to provoke me and my friends, which then made me very glad i do not know them...

so, i would say "expense"? :)

to all those who had texted and asked if i am ok with all the happenings in the blog... i'm goooooooooodddddddddd :) teng kiu for concern... *muacks*... fine with everything coz i am very sure about what i felt, what was done, who is impt, who is not, who needs to be answered, who can be ignored. and my friends know it too!

love me friendsssssssssss!!!

wow... i have the most superb friends ever. and it looks like other ppl have superb friends too.

i have been getting many interesting comments since the "controversial" posting involving team A/ team B. there are many postings from many anoynymouses who claims to be unrelated to team A/ team B/ and me!

however, from their comments, it seems like they are just protective friends of the one of the many teams. which is great. i am happy for these ppl who have such loyal friends. even if the way their loyalty is expressed leaves much to be desired. ie. by provoking my friends and trying to provoke me. but i am glad to note my friends have managed excellently!!! (lots of muacks!)

i must say, firstly, that i alot of comments are valid to a certain extent. different ppl have different comments because of their different experiences in life. conclusion no 1 : you ppl are not arguing! just commenting of different aspects of the same thing.

the only reason why it sounds like an argument is because a person is singled out, the their earlier posting is misintepreted (intentionally or otherwise, i have no idea).

for example, the one who singled out mf's comments. she was just saying that she can tell who are her real friends when she was through a period of time in her life when things were not easy. and mr anonymous comes up with come examples of what he thinks would have to be done to be regarded as a real friend. those examples might seem cynical. but they might be what he has experienced. don't buy, no friend.

but mr anonymous must also realise that there are many ways to be supportive, other than the monetary way. listening to the person sales pitch, providing feedback, generally being supportive when most ppl are turning away, are some of the stuff a friend can do to help another friend. so, mf and mr anonymous are not disagreeing. just different views of the same thing.

and jaimie's posting. she's a lovely, soft, and very protective friend. (in case you have not noted, being protective is a very motherly thing). but somemore mr anonymouses (i think there are more than one there) decide to select certain lines in her comments to misinterprete rather than see the true message being delivered. she was stating the fact that i felt my friends were not treated nicely and that she was proud to have me as a friend (and the feeling is mutual darling!!)

how did all those other comments come about (not that i am not happy to get that many comments!! :)) is just because i have new readers (yay!!!) which are from a different background, different upbringing, different ways of showing loyalty, different ways of interpreting stuff written. which is fine.

i am proud of how all my lovely friends have managed. how they have managed to remained calm and collected even when being provoked. how they have commented in as civil a way as possible, at the same time remaining fiercely protective and loyal! mf, km&jc, yean, jaimie, cell, love u ppl!!

Sunday, August 19, 2007

that is what friends are for...

i have recently posted a rather controversial posting on this blog... (i finally got what my friends mean when they say controversial gets readers!)

and there was a comment which advised "do not burn bridges" and that "i might need them some day"...

i have not seen alot of things throughout these years of my life, but i have seen one thing. when times are good and things are going great, friends would be aplenty. when times are bad... really bad (many people may not experience these kind of bad times), those are the times when you would know, who your true friends are. and if they are true friends, the bridges would not burn so easily.

so, are all friends equal? ask yourself, aren't there friends that you would do more for? go the extra mile?

and just for the record, i do not make friends thinking they may come in handy one day.

AND it's not the numbers, it's the quality...



Wednesday, August 15, 2007

uncertainties...

there are a lot of uncertainties at the moment. a number of choices. all are tempting. all with uncertainties. some aspects are downright frightening!

i do not doubt my own capabilities (how about that for confidence?? too much?? misplaced??? ... anyways..), i do not doubt my ability to adapt, but i sometimes wonder (nowadays, a lot of the times i am wondering) if there are somethings that i might not be able to control in time to come?

then i tot, life is too short to consider those uncertainties. managed when the time comes? but then again, if it is foreseen, and yet i proceed... wouldn't that be a little bit on the stupid side?

it's like being in a jungle, seeing a nice clean pool, thinking should i jump into it? all signs are screaming mirage!!! don't jump!!! it's a pool of quicksand!!! and me being either stupid or overly optimistic, think, what if it's really a pool? life's too short. play hard?

sorely disappointed...

group A comprised of funny, sociable and seemingly genuinely nice ppl.

group B comprised of funny, genuinely nice and most-of-the-time-cliquish ppl.

group A met group B today. suprisingly, group B fared pretty well. significant effort put in to be friendly. no complaints despite the many things that can be bitched about. not a single comment on group A.

however, group A was sorely disappointing. as there very obvious display of unfriendliness. though, to be fair, not the whole group was at fault. but i suppose being a part of the group, one would generally react in respond to peer pressure! and part of group A very recently was very upset over the fact that certain parties are not genuine nor sincere in friendship. i say, look inward. are you genuine?

i was pretty pissed. and for a very long while, i was wondering if i was being a bitch, unnecessarily. maybe it's age, i thought...maybe even hormornes... over sensitive?... channelling other feelings out in form of anger???

after having given it much tot, i conclude that, no, it's none of the above. i think i just take it very personally when my good friends are not welcomed. if they are not good enough for you, then neither am i...








Monday, August 13, 2007

WWF??

it's WWW (Why Wild Life?)





Hmmm... i think this would make a nice handbag!! :)





animal lovers we are.....

on the way back from PD, we stopped by the ostrich farm...




terence riding the ostrich...


bbq in pee dee (part VI)






going home...


bbq in pee dee (part V)

yummy bubbly shandy :)






bbq in pee dee (part IV)

more participants!





bbq in pee dee (part III)

the participants






bbq in pee dee (part II)




shopping for bbq was fun. drive down was nice. starting fire was hard work. bbq-ing was fun too! but marshmallows were missing :( pictionary was fun. banana boat was fun. ostrich farm was interesting. drive back was a blurrrrrr... most importantly, being with friends was very fun! :)

1) ancasa all suites : ****
nice, clean, spacious.

2) ostrich farm : ***
goats were cute, ostrich(es?) looked dirty, pony was small, parrot was pretty, turkeys (?? were they turkeys??) were ugly. baby croc was tortured (by terence).

3) pd beach : **
need the following : light source, fine white sand, clear blue water

4) fire starters from carrefour : -*****
DO NOT buy fire starters from carrefour. Not useable.

5) charcoals from carrefour : -****
cute but damn difficult to light. should be heart shaped.


bbq in pee dee


walkie for communication... super canggih rite?


setting out... it was raining.....



luckily it was blue sky and breezy in PD!!!

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

today got suprise

received a call which, i would have never in a million years, tot i would get! pleasant suprise, nevertheless. the only minus was probably me not knowing how to react to it! but i think i did pretty well, managing my own feelings and processing my tots and talking all at the same time. considering i can't multitask.


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can't write anymore. coz i suppose i'm processing and filtering...and so i'll have to continue some other time as i have decided that everything that is categorised under the label "me" will have to be unfiltered... directly from brain cells that generate tots to fingers...



Sunday, August 05, 2007

what about me?

none of my friends have submitted postings for my blog as per my request. so i suppose my quest to make this blog more "me" through them is futile. i suppose it does explain why i am one of world's biggest procrastinator.

so, here is my attempt at writing - at a more personal level.

... after having stared at the screen for a good 5 minutes. i still do not know how to start. so, i suppose i'll just type as i go along? i don't normally tell a lot things to a lot of people. i guess this would help you understand why it's so difficult for me to write really personal postings. why don't i tell? maybe there is a certain extent of inferiority complex... since i usually don't think people would be all that entertained/ interested to know more about me. that sounds too pathetic and now i'm irritated with myself!! i have low tolerance for people who are too pessimistic and have low self esteem. but somehow i allow myself that "luxury?" to behave as such. this is not going right and i am wondering if i should publish this. coz it's beginning to sound like too much self bashing. sigh. this is difficult...

let's see... what should my readers know about me?

i am 30, single, ready to be found (as i refused to search!!! kakakakakaka... tot that was funny :)), studied acca, did audit in pwc/IT-accounting in prudential services asia, now doing sales of medical devices in medan khas (yes, i deal with doctors; no, i do not have a doctor boyfriend), play tennis, like fishing (just the casting, waiting and reeling in part of it), gym (coz i put on weight super easily), don't watch tv, spend most of my time yam-ing cha with friends and clients, have cheap taste in food (don't like raw food/ oysters/ geoduck/ foie gras), don't eat internal organs, love potatoes, like foosball, love chick flicks and chick lit, would really like to do rally one day but my left and right is so screwed it'll probably be the last thing i do, am analytical, a little bit too analytical i am told, therefore not sensitive and most of the times don't have much of what you call "gut feel!", but thankfully, am still able to tell if the person i meet gives good/ bad vibes, used to love dogs, now i don't mind playing with them, dislike cats, tortoises are cute when small, like fierce looking cars (the kind which you would move to the left lane when you see them approaching from the rearview mirror), would like to have my own business, like naf naf, love shopping, have bad memory, like nutella, m&m, rum and raisins, have sweet tooth, was staying in subang jaya, now in puchong, studies in srk subang jaya, sm subang jaya, a levels in taylors, acca in sunway/ ftms/ systematic, part time work in i & j, scuba dived in 1996, stopped coz my dive buddy went back to holland and i entered pwc, have one brother, one sister in law, both in dubai, one mother and one father, like funny people (as in my kind of sense of humour), love pictionary, and suddenly i stopped thinking and so i suppose i have to continue when i think of something to write.

that's quite alot of information. all unfiltered. so, i hope this will satisfy some of the critics out there. i am quite impressed that i managed to think so fast. after all, i like to believe that i do type pretty fast!!

to be continued when tots flow again...

any questions? :)

au naturel

K had nice blue eyeshadow on yesterday. tot it complement her look coz she is super fair with jet black hair. but S and A tot it looked funny! "maybe not use to her looking like that ler..."

S said "i like the natural look! you know where is the best place to check out girls? at the pasar malam!!"

and so it begins... A,B and S with their wild imagination...

scenario 1. the guy is standing with gaya at the air mata kucing stall. a good looking chicky walk by. he sends the air mata kucing guy to the girl with a glass or air mata kucing. the girl says "i did not order this". The air mata kucing guy then nods towards the guy posing next to the air mata kucing bike. "it's from that gentleman over there". The guy at the air mata kuching bike smiles his casanova smile and lift his glass of mata air kucing up in a toast and winks!

scenario 2. guy at fish stall. girl with au naturel look comes up and started poking at the fishes. he says "mmm... you smelling good... what perfume u using ar????!"

hhmm... i guess there is a reason why guys do not pick up girls in pasar malam. why certain activities happens only in clubs. correct? anybody ever approach somebody in the pasar malam before? that'll be interesting...

searching

CM said (not in her exact words, but something to that effect!)....

...it's good to search. but you must search with a sense of peace. otherwise there will be negative effects, worry which will turn into desperation which may then manifest into depression... you must believe that everything will fall into place...

which is true. many are still searching. for the right job. right mate. and because life is so uncertain. we don't know how much time we have. we don't know if we are ever doing the right thing. i suppose it would be great if we all believe that everything will fall into place. that we are suppose to be doing all that we are doing. that we are suppose to go through all that we go through. so that we are ready for whatever it is we are suppose to be doing later. i suppose that would give a sense of peace.

i guess those who continuously search would be wondering if there is such thing as the best. or would the search be futile. cm says that if it is not time to search, you wouldn't feel like moving. but when you feel like moving, it is just time! and sometimes, when you are triggered to search. it might not come to you immediately. so if there is no peace, worry would set in. because you don't know how much time is left. then helplessness because no matter what you try, it just doesn't seem right. desperation because it feels like time is running out faster and faster. desperation because everybody else seems to know what they are doing. depression because you give up.

so, find the peace. by believing that everything you decide to do is the very thing you are suppose to do... in preparation for what you will be doing.

so wise ler my friend...



cm : teng kiu~! for making time to see me. for taking time to analyse. for the warning... for the advise. for being there! you da best!

Friday, August 03, 2007

zero to trading in one day

anybody interested to learn about investment? particularly share market?

zero to trading in one day.

will be learning all about share market. how it works. what are the various techniques. what the various terms mean. what are the various ways to select a stock. the various sources of information. the various ways to trade. at the end of the day, if you want to, register for a CDS account. register with a broker. learn online trading. have all your queries answered.

zero to trading in one day. teaching you how to fish will be the mission. so, do not expect a list of stocks/ "tips". you will be learning the basics of how to select. target date : end september 07. target venue : subang jaya.

let me know. also pls prepare listing of questions which you have. things that you have always wondered about the share market. and pass it to me. teng kiu!

wat dede really mean to say

dede's really quite adorable. she tries. very hard. to be polite! so, this is a guide to what she really means when she says...

1) that's all. tq! (to the waiters) --> shoo!!! go away!! go get my orders fast!!!!!

2) no..., it was ok.... (iro trip to PD) --> it sucked. but it turned out better than i expected. but it sucked. plus we did not get drunk.

3) why is the orange juice green (to the waiters) --> ew.... i don't want that drink. can change ar?