it's really not that difficult...

i have been speaking to a number of people over the past few weeks. this is because i am suppose to make a decision which would affect me quite significantly over the next two years.

i spoke to one who don't know me well, and don't know the background of the decision i am facing. this person gave examples of how he makes his decisions. which is to increase the probability of success in everything he does. he chooses the path which is most likely to work well. which may or may not be what the person wants to do most... (then again most people don't know what they want to do most!) and which may or may not end up a success.

then i spoke three who seem to have achieved alot for their age. both said they would have chosen money and exposure. one said "life is a journey".... not so much about the destination...

i spoke to one who know me pretty well. he asked if it is aligned to my eventual goals. if not, don't do it! why be distracted (?)...

i spoke to a very good friend who knows me, and who knows the details of the decision to be made. she said she fear for me should i decide to undertake the new journey.

then i went to a new age shop which sells new age book. i saw this book which says fear it, then do it anyway (!)

thanks to this decision, i had possibly the 8th or 9th headache in my life... SIGH... real case of itchy backside, looking for trouble when there were none...

however

the previous post was written in march 2007. now it is sept 2009. i am now working harder. somehow, work always finds me (sigh!)

anyway, i am now a "manager" working like a rep. "manager" is alot of work. so, now i understand why i hear stories of people wanting to stay as a rep. plus, there is always a feeling of being undervalued, taken for granted, etc...

i am no closer to owning my own business. which is of nobody's fault other than my own. as always, procrastination gets me nowhere.


so now, i am again, contemplating....

stumbled upon a draft!

i was just scrolling through the files in my external hdd, when i stumbled upon a draft posting for my blog.... so, here goes....

i was sitting down with some ex-colleagues many moons back… and conversation, inevitably, revolved around work. How the too-stupid-to-live clients could not provide the much needed information on time; how bosses couldn’t have been more demanding; how subordinates should never have applied for the job; how interpretation of the latest standard is such a bitch; how life will equal work for the next century or so…

and I thought to myself, how lucky I am to have moved out of the industry.

Sure, I can’t bitch about work like before (I suppose bitching about work and a lot of other people give one a sense of superiority and it might even feel like the job is so tough it provides job satisfaction!!)… not to mention not being able to climb the so ever glamourous corporate ladder; wear that office suit which lends an air of importance (really??!) - when we are really just feeling poor due to the super low pay and exploited due to the super long hours…

but now, I get to see the sun, I have time to meet up with friends at decent hours, I’m not always the last one to appear at a gathering, i have time for gym, for tennis, I’m more patient with my family members, I have time to read, I can just lie around and do nothing on a Sunday morning…

bliss… :)

let’s think about job prospects, higher pay, respect and recognition … another day. After all, I didn’t want a job where people will think “wah… so smart”… I wanted a job where people will think “lucky bitch… so much time for all that… no need to work ka???”, alternatively, “wah… so much marni one… somemore no need to work like dog”…

not quite there yet… but feels like I’m on the right track…

p/s : some people out there might not agree… well, that’s too bad. Live with it!