are u a registered voter?

Can check mar... at :

http://daftarj.spr.gov.my/daftarbi.asp


If need to change details, can go post opis. If need to register, also go to post opis.

p/s: info courtesy of my ever informative friend, hy.

lantern

start small. a friend said. sell nasi lemak!! ??????? (when i can't cook to save myself??!!!) that's after i was told by another friend that my business proposal, which was in its infancy, would never suvive. as a matter of fact, it was in sperm and ovum stage. and i was told it would not become zigot.

i suppose those who knows me would assume that statement is enough to spur me to start to prove the other friend wrong. but i thought that would, again, be like jumping into a hole thinking it is filled with champagne AFTER being told it is filled with quicksand AND you can kind of see the sand already. which would be pretty dumb.

another well meaning one feedback and said "you always have big ideas. start small..."

ok... will do.

then she said let's do a lantern making contest. and i said ok! i'll make a fish. with a tiny disco light spinning inside. speakers mounted on it's gills, blasting vengaboy's songs! it shall be an ah beng fish!!!

oh yea, start small. i think i'll make a fish.

hibernation

imagine a cold cold wintery day and you crawled under a nice fluffy comforter... feeling warm and safe, would it not be easy to just sleep the day away... i suppose that's why bears hibernate? guess national geography would not agree with that. but it must be pretty comfy in that fur coat on a cold cold wintry day.

talk about crapping.

anyways, i suppose hibernation period would not be bad. sometimes being so caught up with everything and everybody, people get lost. lost in everybody else's dreams and expectations. and lose sight of one's own. hibernation is not uncommon. alot of people "find" themselves by going somewhere else. some just "disappear" for awhile. definitely need to hibernate a little while.

shot down

the piece of styrofoam...floating happily by.... shot down... M16 style... pain... for a moment it was like how they have described in books. life flashing by. how it started. what went wrong. and current state. which did not quite feel wrong. till now...

then it was no more pain. just a numb floaty feeling. aimless.

fighting to come back is difficult. tiring. pulling yourself together when you have been torn apart into a million pieces. every piece seems to be going in different direction. even more difficult when you don't know if you want to come back. when it is so much more easier to just float away (though it was much more easier to float away unaware that you are floating away... floating away fully aware of your state is a different story...)

aimlessness kills. kills the soul.

msg. take stock. select direction. move. msg received.

illusion....

sometimes don't you wonder if the "opposition" we have is real? or is it all an illusion engineered by the ruling to give a false sense of democracy? think about it... how many ppl in their right mind would say the things said by our very entertaining opposition???

an interesting concept. maybe i should hire somebody really terrible to work in the company i work in. a nightmare of an employee. then by contrast, my boss should think i'm a super duper employee worth every effort to retain!!!

hhmm... makes me wonder how often is this concept used...

a whole new perspective...

a was bitching about how racial discrimination in the country is getting worse and how one race's apathetic nature contributes to the situation, etc etc... when a very wise friend gave me a whole new perspective...

1. may 13 was engineered by a few people to enable the implementation of policies to close the wealth gap

2. only selected group really benefit from the scheme

3. may 13's purpose was also to create fear... to make it a "sensitive" issue... so that no one talks about it... no one understands it.... and so, nobody can do anything about it

4. the idea that one race was making all the money was planted into the another race's mind... the idea that the latter race is benefiting from the policies implemented is planted into the former race's mind... but look at rural areas... is the latter race really benefiting?
if the plan is not working after so many years, why isn't it abolished yet? is a balance ever going to be achieved?

5. if it's not abolished and if the balance is not achieved after so many years... why not? if the plan is good does that not mean implementation is not done well? who is accountable? why isn't the person held responsible? should another person maybe be elected to make it happen? why not change leadership then?


what say you? make sense? isn't it interesting? a whole new perspective~

i guess sometimes, we can't look at the things certain parties want us to look at. look beyond. at the big picture. all are being manipulated for the benefit of a selected few.

non attachment

i read this very interesting book titled "How to develop happiness in daily living".

it's a compilation of a few write ups by different people who practices buddhism. i don't subscribe to a particular religion. but i do believe there is a creator. "the beginning" is probably just one event involving the same people. and the different religions are, maybe, interpretation by men, of that same event, or maybe of different phases of the event. thereby, appearing to be different. but in fact, are the same things!

however, i do not know much about all different religions out there. so, i shall not, or rather, cannot expound futher!

but there is one particular article which caught my attention. i have heard of the concept of non attachment before. but never understood it. it was written very well in this book. and since there is no copyright, i tot i would like to share the following lines from the book.

it was written by one ajahn sumedho. it says "first, you must recognize what attachment is, and then you let go. That's when you realize non-attachment. However, if you're coming from the view that you shouldn't be attached, then that's still not it."

does being attached to things bring happiness or suffering?

not being attached does not mean you should get rid of your family members (eg. your wife). it means freeing yourself from the wrong views about yourself and your wife. then there would be love, but it is not attached. not distorting. not clinging. not grasping. the empty mind is quite capable of caring about others and loving in the pure sense of love.

parents say how much suffering there is in having children, because there's a lot of wanting. wanting them to be a certain way. this creates anguish and suffering in our minds.

the empty mind - the pure mind - is not a blank where you're not feeling or caring about anything. it's an effulgence of the mind. it's a brightness that is truly sensitive and accepting.

it's an ability to accept life as it is. when we accept life as it is, we can respond appropriately to the way we're experiencing it, rather than just reacting out of fear and aversion.


i say, interesting!! those are just excerpts from the write up. having no expectations whatsoever on other people. loving them in the purest sense. as they are? wanting a person to be like this or wanting a person to be like that normally happens when you do take the person as yours. your wife. your girlfriend. your child. your protege. your good friend. your SOMETHING! i suppose that's attachment? then when the other party doesn't turn out as expected. there is suffering?? interesting.... but if it is not going to be yours, then there is no "vested interests"... then can there be love? love of the purest sense??? but then again, there is normally love if there are vested interests.. no??


raining.... yay!!! i think i'll go love my bed for a little while. i'm sure it's pretty pure... open window. smell the rain. listen to the rhythm. crawl under the blankie. hide from the whole world. for a little while... have a good saturday ppl! :)