how hv you been babes?

is a really tough question to answer...

do i bore you with the many things i have to whine about? like how i try to treat my parents well and they are making it really difficult. like how the person i had wanted to build a business for (and hopefully with) turns out to be.... difficult to look up to. like how i am considering starting a business of my own, but am totally freaked out about the amount of work it would take to make it happen. like how maxis home broadband sucks and how it is challenging to switch to another provider in this day and age in a "developing country" (how many years have we been "developing" already?) 

or do i go the usual - everything is great, how are you doing? - inauthentic, deflecting strategy that is totally non value adding? 

i suppose it all boils down to interest. am i interested to build a relationship with a person? because it take time. it takes effort. and because through the many many years i have been here and through the many many relationships i have been through, i have learnt that many turn out to be not what i expected. then again, that sounds like attachment... i should go in without expectations. that way, i don't get disappointed. perhaps it would make me naturally less judgy? just do me and let them be them? but then again, once a person is invested, has an interest in another, care for another... there is this crazy tendency to have expectations - how they should behave to you, how they should be for their own sake (as in how we know better than them what is good for them > <)

i suppose this board meeting in my head is not going to go anywhere. let's conclude and say, just get in there. be me. let them to them. advise if asked. otherwise learn to listen. focus on creation. focus on moving forward. 

let it be.