dubai... surreal

it's surreal. it's almost like one stepped into another world. a fantasy world. the playground of the filthy rich.

the cars (like car magazine - only they are on the road). the villas. the people. the kite surfing. the beautiful beaches. the indoor ski slope. the palm. the growth rate. the rate at which things are being built. it's simply amazing. it's so fast.

i tot to myself. where have i been?? what is holding me back? why am i not here? i suppose it's true. if you have not seen it, you would not know what you have been missing. then i tot. i want these. all these. then i tot. do i really want these? would it make me happier? then i tot. do i really not want all these? or am i just thinking that i don't want these because i am not sure if i can get them? then i tot. how to be contented again?

someone told me that comes with age. when i get older, i will know how to be contented. so i should just go for it now. but what if i chase and chase and chase, and in the end realise that i have been chasing nothing? i can hear it now. why think so much. just do it laarrr

scared ma. what if chase wrong thing?

can one have it all? family, friends, love, money, cars, kite surfing, lurrrvvvly clothes...???? must prioritize and balance to make sure no regrets. must chase and not worry about regret. must know how to be thankful, so can learn to be contented. yet must not complacent. so many things to keep in mind.

note to self : start multitasking.

back to dubai. dubai is nice. lebanon food is yummy here. al hallab is anyways. cars are beautiful. being here makes one feel like it's possible. to be travelling around in the cars that one tot one will only see in car magazines. the rate at which buildings come up. one would think you just have to put a pill in the ground and water. buildings sprout like taugehs. so fast. makes one wonder what would happen if dubai stops building? where are they going to find people to occupy all these buildings when it's all completed?? if artic melt, what would happen to palm? can it float? the size of the villas and the grounds. they must have buggies to ferry servants to and fro servant quarters and villa. i think sell grass also will be darn loaded liao.

everything is so different. it's a different world. would it be my world? will keep you ppl posted :) now have to go out for breakfast...