an inexplicable sadness

cannot really say inexplicable. reason is clear. it is the only thing to do to preserve what is left.  however, there is an overwhelming sadness. emptiness. perhaps it is fate.  

patterns

if i take the time, i would notice certain patterns in my life. there are things that repeat itself in numerous forms, numerous ways because if i do the same things, or react in a similar way, i get the same results.

and because i have some things which were “programmed” in me, i act a certain way when i am on auto pilot... when i am not conscious.

if i want change, i have to do things differently. the only way to do things differently is if i am conscious of what i am doing that is producing the results i am getting. taking the time to figure this out is worth it. and no, it is not overthinking. and sometimes, perhaps acting on it, whether it is or is not the right thing to act on, may just provide an answer as to what should be done next... or at the very least, what is not the right thing to act on!

note to self, take time to figure out the consistent action or reaction that is producing the same results over and over again. do something different. it does not matter what. just do it.

complementary

i don't know about long term goals. but my short term goal is to stop waiting for things to happen. 

i was inspired by amanda tan wei ru. she showed me that if you want something badly enough and you work towards it, doing all that you can...the right people, right tools and right opportunities will turn up. 

tried it. worked. it was an amazing experience. the law of attraction is real. however, it is not easy to maintain this power. doubts creep in. obstacles appear. easier and more familiar options appear. tempting one to travel the path well trodden. 

my saving grace is having a partner who complements me. being analytical and very much a thinker, i found a do-er partner. a runaway train really. we just have to sync up our cycles such that when i think too much and doubt creeps in, she makes headway and propels me ahead. when she is tired, i work on something that she did not want to do, but she feels is important; thus giving her the feeling that we are progressing... motivating her to move on. 

let's see where we go from here 

Elon Musk vs Jack Ma

just watched an fb post. mindblown.

somebody decided it was smart to place elon musk in a "debate" with jack ma. in a room full of chinese audience. it totally crushed jack ma.

it was disappointing. i did not really know much about jack ma prior to this fb post. after this fb post, i am convince he is full of fluff. contradicted himself during the event. grasping and denying without a strong basis. this much is certain, one of his plans include exploitation of education industry.

elon musk on the other hand, a league of his own. there is only one issue. he is unable to slow his thoughts down enough, dumb it down enough to verbalize it in a way the audience is able to comprehend.

the audience, based on comments on fb. fair bit of oblivious arse kissers. some objective observers.

learnt alot though. elon has very intense thoughts and made many compelling statements.

humans have existed a long long time. we have not been able to understand ourselves all this time. otherwise, history would not have repeated itself. when AI takes over, we will understand ourselves. this is because it is easier to see than to imagine. seeing AI's future evolution is understanding humans. this is because AI is programmed by humans. unfortunately. humans are flawed. imagine those flaws programmed into something that will not ever expire.

fight for the light of consciousness. interesting advice. need to delve into it. But seems like matrix may be the next movie to rightly predict what is in the horizon.   

guardians of the galaxy vol.2

funny with the good message...

ego may cause u to think u are above everyone else, and may make u think u are meant for a higher purpose in life

in pursuit of the "higher purpose", u may destroy everything - lives of the people around u...

ego may make you feel immortal... because when u achieve your "higher purpose", u will be everything

but we are not immortal

when u are alive, in pursuit of the higher purpose, would u not see what u have right now, right in front of u?

if u are like everybody else, is that so bad?

when u are alive, perhaps it would not hurt to imagine your death... what u do in life, determines if u get a ravagers funeral~

How will it be?

50 years from now... how will it be?

driverless flying cars powered by a battery which does not need recharging... ever? where we work while commuting to work or will we need to work? perhaps there will be an elite non working class and the poor who would be controlled by the working class and every year, one of them from each area will be selected to participate in games to entertain the elite?

since it is driverless, we no longer have car insurance policies? population will increase by the number of people who would have died in car accidents?

since cars are flying, we no longer require roads? perhaps it is levitating on magnetic strips? perhaps there will be invisible air roads which the cars are able to detect?

renewable or nuclear energy means no more petrol... if it is nuclear energy, would that mean more or less pollution?

the mobile phones would serve (actually... already is serving) as a phone, watch, camera, calendar, PDA, e-books, tv, journal, meeting place, translator, data storage, banks (will there be money?), credit cards, debit cards, calculator, loyalty programs (if there is still such a thing as businesses), financial tracking, shopping tool, radio, fitness tracking, a tool that enables a modern barter system perhaps?

no more malls, no retail, no call centers - everything is self service, through the phone

the mobile phone will track your health status and your insurance premium will be adjusted accordingly. your grocery purchases would be adjusted automatically to correct any imbalance... perhaps food will be a pill (that would not be good!)... emergencies will be attended to immediately by flying emergency centers...

humans might even be in pods... living life through their "avatars" - which means we might actually be living in virtual worlds (hollywood is good) - omg.... matrix is real! perhaps we would have 2 groups of people... people who embrace this form of living and people who will be the "hippies" of the future, the ones living off the grid, without robots and other advance technologies...

perhaps robots will be the ones producing everything that is necessary. we need not work! then will money be necessary? perhaps that is no longer a measure of wealth in time to come? we will no longer have various companies trying to hard to earn "money", there will no longer be the chase for more of everything, chase for more sales, more unnecessary demand created because of that very chase... produce and only consume what is necessary? maybe slow down on consumption? but if money is no longer the medium of exchange as we all have "enough"... then what will be scarce? time? another hollywood movie!! in time!

would we run out of food? air? back to basics, when the other material items don't matter anymore?

4 June 2017
police force will be replaced by robots with AI and facial recognition capabilities... fitted with cameras to broadcast crime in progress... emotion detectors, able to detect and assess gestures and body language and able to speak many different languages!

10 June 2018
just went through hong kong immigration...passport scanned, facial recognition worked. there goes employees of the immigration department...also saw on fb... Google duplex... amazing! artificial intelligence making calls to make appointments. there goes secretaries and personal assistants and call centers...

17 April 2022

never had i imagine that illustrators would be replaced by AI! NFTs... i still don't quite grasp this, but artificial intelligence can create NFTs using text-to-image AI software and the NFTs can talk!! oh wow, describe an image and the very intelligent software will create a talking illustration that will appeal to you! *mindblown

and oh, we won't only be sharing cars (uber/ grab) and homes (airbnb). we will be sharing clothes too!

p/s, all these are combination of the imagination of many many brilliant minds... so creative! i shall add to this post as i read new articles~

gen X.75

my pet topic at the moment... how the robots are taking over~ 

it all started when i read that i am the generation that may be caught by surprise - like a deer in the headlights - by how the robots are taking over... 

i am the generation that still played in the gardens - a game of catch, skipping, and "game and watch"... we watched the same cartoons as the kids in the entire neighbourhood as there there was no astro or dvd or streaming...

i am the generation studying with books and floppy discs, moving on to smaller square disks (i forgot what those are called), finally to usb drives...

i am the generation who did not have mobile phones when we were in school and for me, till i have my first job! we had big phones, flip phones, small phones and now we are back to big phones...

then came emails, icq, irc, internet and google

and maybe it is not all of a sudden... but all of a sudden, we have uber or grab and taxi drivers are jobless! phones are killing cameras, everybody is a "professional" photographer, online shopping is killing retail shops and malls, junior lawyers will be replaced by artificial intelligence, drivers are no longer needed in the mines as we have driverless trucks - no rest, no holidays, no tantrums...

i am the generation who might be replaced right before i am ready to retire, and with advancements in medical science and technology, i am the generation with extended lifespan...